on trusting the pull
sometimes all you need is the quiet recognition that something has run its course. that somewhere deep down within, you know it is over. you know you are ready for the ending, ready for the new beginning. it is almost as if you can feel the new beginning as if it is within arms length. yet it is distant at the same time. but this part of your life, it does feel complete. perhaps logically it may not make sense yet and the piece are still bound to come together, but you can’t help but notice the feeling. the feeling pulling you toward change. the feeling waking you up to your life’s desires. the feeling creating discourse between your heart, mind, and body.
a lot of the times, we do know what’s true. because we feel it in our bodies. what feels joyful, exciting, energizing — even if we don’t know have the logic behind it, is usually the direction to move towards. whatever feels draining, heavy, weighing you down, is usually a sign that something isn’t working.
i’ve had conversations with friends lately, about what it means to follow your heart. about what it means to release the ego, the logic, and how sometimes we grow so lost in the planning, focusing so much on the how…that it ends up being the very thing that holds us back.
we all have some sort of story about how following a pull, following their heart, even without knowing the outcome has led us towards experiences, moments, lessons, and a sense of purpose we never could have predicted. all because we trusted ourselves. we trusted because there is a pull, that is enough of a sign to believe that you are more than worthy to follow it.
sometimes i question the things i feel pulled towards because they seem illogical or confusing. sometimes i question it because i feel pulled towards multiple things or i end up inside my head rather than inside my heart. it is almost as if sometimes our hearts know the truth, yet as the truth works its way up to our mind, we are met with fear, doubt, and inability to take action. but maybe, it all just takes time. to notice the feeling. to work through the fears, the doubts. to observe it. to trust you are still where you need to be and you will get to where you need to be by following your heart.
yet i remember, each and every one of us has our own version of this pull. we each feel drawn towards different things, because we are all inherently different beings. we have different experiences, different stories, and many different things that make us uniquely who we are. these are the things that may define what we love. or that give us a sense of purpose. and it was mirrored back to me that this is why it is so important to follow your gut. to follow the pull. because it is yours. it is not anyone else’s.
the thing about this pull, is that when we feel it, it doesn’t automatically mean we have it figured out or know the answers. i believe in fact, it may mean the opposite. which is why following what we feel can be so intimidating. because it is the furthest thing from having it figured out. because it challenges logic. because it is the unknown. but what is true at the same time, is that there are experiences waiting for us on the other side. once we say yes, once we take the leap. there are lessons (always), experiences, people, opportunities, mistakes and so much more. rather than staying where logic lies, it is saying yes to life. it is saying yes to your heart. it is saying yes to you.
it has been made obvious to me time after time while a plan is important, sometimes the best plan we can have is to trust our truest desires. to act on our truest desires. to dance in the unknown. to take the risk. yet i wonder how many times i said no to life out of fear, worry, logic, or because trying to make a plan felt confusing and complicated. trying to control what is not meant to be known yet will only keep us stuck. what if the best plans arrive from simply following the pull to say yes, even if the fear, worry, and logic of the ego step in anyways?
there are defining moments in our lives where we can choose to go on with the mainstream or we can dare ourselves to take a bolder, more authentic path. even if it seems riskier or unsafe. stay open to an intuitive approach in life. our surroundings may say life needs to be lived in a certain way, to have a well-detailed plan for success, but sometimes, the best plan is to follow whatever intuitively feels true in that moment. trust that you are being led towards your own growth.
i saw a quote on substack yesterday that said no one talks about the resentment you have towards yourself after you didn’t listen to your gut. because we’ve all been here many times too. we’ve made choices from logic or fear, and even if there is resentment for not listening, there are so many lessons, moments of confirmation, and clarification that next time, because there will be a next time, you will be courageous enough to follow the feeling.
it is our dharma, our responsibility, and karmic duty in life to follow what is on our hearts because our ideas, our gifts, our strengths are needed in this world. being in our power and in our element is needed in this world.
and maybe that’s the practice. what i am learning is often times when we choose the direction we want to move towards, we will continue to know the next steps to take. because if something is calling you, it is okay to turn in that direction. it is okay to explore it, to see what is there. it is okay to venture into the unknown, to sacrifice the plan just for a brief moment, to allow a detour. even if it is just to follow a feeling. it will always lead you where you need to go. the people, places, and lessons, are always right on time.
and it is okay to let flow, trust, and creativity exist with logic. to take the logical step and trust you will be guided. to have a plan but create space for the magic and unknown in life. to be the artist without denying logic. to trust intuition without denying science. but often more times than not, we forget to leave room for the universe to work its magic. sometimes the release of control is on the same ground where freedom can be met.
many have said it before me, yet i will say it again, because i know it to be true. if it is your calling, it will keep calling.
and do with that, what you will.
with gratitude,
vanessa